40 Days of Surrender - Day 58

Thursday, December 8, 2011 - Keep Surrendering


It's been 25 days since I last posted and boy has it been a whirlwind and wow have God and I had quite the conversations!


November 2^nd my mother-in-law was diagnosed with stage 3 cancer for the third time in 10 years.  Nov. 9^th she got news that it was inoperable and she was too weak for chemo so she had the option of choosing radiation and/or feeding tube (as the tumor was in her esophagus and causing swallowing trouble).   Nov. 11^th  she opted against the radiation and against the feeding tube.   Nov. 14-20th DH flew out to NC to spend some time with his mom and help his dad.  He returned to NC Nov. 24-27^th  for the weekend of Thanksgiving instead of joining me and the kids in Ohio.  DMIL passed away the evening of Nov. 28^th.  DH and I flew out Dec. 1^st for the funeral on the 3^rd and returned home 9pm on the 4^th.  


When I knew DH was going to be gone for the week before Thanksgiving and I was planning on being in Ohio with my parents the week of Thanksgiving anyway, I ended up going to Ohio a week earlier.   That way I could be closer to NC if I needed to get to the funeral and the kids were already with my parents.  As it turned out Mom, the kids, and I were in a hotel halfway back from Ohio when DH called the evening of the 28th with the news.  My mom ended up staying 5 extra days to be with the kids so I could accompany DH to the funeral and fully focus on what needed to be done there (What an awesome Mom she is!)  


So 2 weeks traveling and three weeks of upheaval and I have had a peace - I have truly sensed the prayers of the saints "holding up my arms in battle" for although overwhelmed at times, I have not been too stressed, anxious, or irritable that is not my "natural" response so I credit that to the working of the Holy Spirit in response to the prayers of His people.  Thank you to anyone reading this who may be responsible for the evidence of God's hand "on earth as it is in heaven"!


And as my Dear Friend pointed out, it seems as though in the LORD's faithfulness He was preparing me for "such a time as this" by having me in this Fast of Surrender.  For many of the aspects of my selfishness that I have been conscious to surrender in the last several weeks have pricked my heart again, guiding me to walk by the grace of godliness and not give in to the temptation of "fleshy feeling."


It is my desire to post some of these details in the days to come, so stay tuned...but with adjusting to "normal life" and it being in the midst of the Christmas season, I have no guesstimate on when or how often that blog-processing might be!




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